The changes

I have had several people tell me that based on all the new changes that I should write a blog. They tell me that it is to keep my sanity but I truly believe that it is just to entertain them with the crazy that is me:)
Quick catchup...Jeff's cancer returned, this is bad..he received a stem cell rescue with high dose chemo, it almost killed him but was good.....he was out of work and we have already depleted our savings with the first set of medical bills:( So next choice we moved in with the in-laws. I have a great new job at the Pentagon, Jeff is working part-time from here when he can. Andrew starts a new school Tuesday and Jack is in Kindercare. Jeff has been here since April, the kids all summer and I just moved in 3 weeks ago!
So far it is OK, the in-laws are nice but it is still a new home.

Let's do a little comparison. I have had three roommates all great. Roommate A was one of my closest friends and a lot of fun but the living situation ending tense and we lost touch for quite a while. Roommate B was my best friend for years. But she was more calm and mature than I, I was pretty sure I would annoy the crap out of her. I don't think I drove her crazy. We had a great roommate situation and I was lucky and blessed to have lived with her. Next is roommate C, we were college friends and not that close. She spent most of her time in her bedroom. But she lived with Jeff and I. I believe she kept Jeff and I from fighting as much as we could be cause we had a third party living with us. She was low maitainence and stayed out of our way.
The question is what kind of roommate do you think I will be for my inlaws?
All I can say is that my father-in-law and mother-in-law appear to drink more, not sure if there is a correaltion to me moving in!
Stories to follow......

Haf way there!

Today Jack headed to VA with my husband and my in-laws. The house is pretty much a ghost town but oddly very comfortable probably because there is less to clean. I am looking forward to spending time with just Andrew. I miss Jack and am hoping it is not too much of a pain for my in-laws. Jeff is doing well and is handling this next waiting preiod well.
Andrew is starting 1st grade next year. His teacher said he was bright and funny and both of those comments just delighted me!
Well not much time to write...Andrew wants to go play!

Next Chapter

A year ago I started to try and blog. I thought with how much I run my mouth it would be fairly easy for me to sit down a few times a week or at least a month and spit some thoughts out. Inevitably life got away from me and now in the midst of a new chapter, that is more crazy than before, I decided I would try again.
I have said before I am blessed and I feel as if I truly appreciate what I have. I also know I work for it and have earned all that I have. Now Jeff's cancer has returned. he has gone through intensive stem cell rescue and additional chemo and 5 weeks after treatment it appears the tumor is growing back again.
So where do I stand do I wallow in the new norm or do I move forward and fight it with everything I have. The answer is easy and simple, we will fight this we will move forward. But in the background when a sad movie is on or certain song I will let myself feel lost. I just need to feel lost long enough to make myself strong for the fight again. Of course as I write this all it is not my fight, it is his fight and he is stronger and braver this time then ever before. So I am still blessed to have him in my life - 10 years of Jeff is better than 50 of any other man!